I Beg To Smile Again

Yet I continue to lay here Another night Of salty and cold cheeks I am in pain I cannot understand Why I want to write my emotions on But tears have blurred my vision My mouth is dry, my throat awkward That music in the background, why so loud With slow painful music It’s cutting me Find me a razor Let me show my body what pain truly should feel as I cried myself to sleep again I am all out of yellow note paper I’ve resulted to blue Even that feels wrong Is that my foundation I hear? Crackin’ Here we go again Spare me, dear God, have mercy and spare me I am close to numb now Am I dead? I feel cold It is not warm Where’s the fire? Those roaring flames