I Associate

I associate being complete with falling in love. Does that mean that as a child I didn't get enough hugs? I fear loneliness like elephants fear mice and I go from person to person trying to get it right. But something is missing something has been missing for a while and I don't want to appear weak I just want some one to make me smile Is it so bad that I associate love with being whole I know what your supposed to be told that you must love thyself before anyone else will but I just want someone to hold I want someone not to go when I need them the most.