I Am the One To Blame

How often do i doubt you how often do i fail to see the big picture I do much to spit in the face of love's face My temper is my one weakness in character and I am so afraid that life will pass me by and i will miss the beauty in everything and I will fail to see the real point I want to see what is real and to erase everything cruel that I have ever done I always jump to the wrong conclusion and I never give you the chance because I cannot capture these issues of trust they fall out of my reach dropping from my clutch I am a fool with all things dealing with romance I am a fool for disrespecting your name I want to trust you but i can't and i don't I want to understand why I can fix this i know i can but it will take me some time its a journey that requires that I grow some wings to fly but something in my mind is always trying to interfere I have one good angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other where its nasty whispers Fill in my ears and poisons my heart Because of this ugly stupidity i miss sweet feeling the symphonies of your smile ignited in my heart and raindrops plopping into the river of your eyes swirling round and round they reflect your light like the moon reflecting off the surface of a river on a midsummers night My stubborn grimace and my closed heart keeps me at bay in a deep trench in my heart where I've been peering out of for far to long waiting and watching so close to always escaping it but then only ending up digging myself further and further I doubt you and you prove me each time so so wrong and I am so wrong. Maybe this last time I will finally change your heart is pure and good and I am the one to blame.