I Am So Lonely

I am so lonely Waiting for my life to start Staring at the ceiling For hours each night Not sure where I’m going Or where I’ll end up Haven’t slept in days Damn that insomnia But it gives me time to think What am I going to do About this disaster The failure that defines me Who is this person Lying in my bed Living in my house Talking to my brother Doing the things I used to love Because it’s just not me I am so lonely Sitting alone in my room Staring with hollow eyes Into the glowing computer screen In the pitch black My own personal prison I built it myself by hand And as time went on The walls grew taller and thicker Sealing me inside And I’ve forgotten where I put the key Maybe someday I will break free I assume that I have a greater purpose Something much more grand Than the life I’ve forced myself into I’ve let the fight leave my life Let the light leave my eyes But I’ll get it back soon And then I won’t be lonely anymore.