I Am a Sailor In a River of Loneliness

is it a crime that i wanna get to know you better is it a crime if i ask if we could at least meet half way is it a crime that i ask for just a little bit more of your time is it a crime that i want to spend some quality time with you....and just you i am a sailor in a river of loneliness i take a permanent marker and color every part of my skin blue without the pleasure of your company, i do not wanna live i wanna isolate myself from the world and be completely forgotten your distance from me is intentional and it is killing me slowly it is okay though because i wanna die i wanna die because you will never give me a chance to earn your heart i wanna die because i will never be able to win your love for me i wanna die because all beautification does not exist without you in it i wanna die because without you here, for me there is no reason to live now that i have expressed my last words of truth, you can go on and kill me now is it a crime that i wanna get to know you better is it a crime if i ask if we could at least meet half way is it a crime that i ask for a little but more of your time is it a crime that i want to spend some quality time with you....and just you