I Actually Liked You

I actually liked you But there's nothing I can do, We could never work out Until you learn to love you When I first met you I thought you were cute But then you started changing, I guess you thought it was cool To be Mr. Tough Guy With a bad attitude Just arrogant. Cocky. Reckless and rude. I actually liked you But I see you need time You have too many faces You need to stop trying That demon insecurity How it plays with the mind If you stayed the same Everything would be fine I liked who you were And what I saw inside You radiated light Something in you just shined I actually liked you But you don't shine anymore My vision is much clearer Then it ever was before I see that you're a counterfeit With a big open sore Still wounded from old trauma That you try to ignore I recognize the red flags And chalk on the floor I know if there's yellow tape, Then don't open the door I actually liked you But I'm not playing this game This relationship is toxic I need to refrain Once things got official Nothing was the same You turned into a monster What goes on in your brain? You're possessive and mean With a temper untamed, Viscous with a big ego Sensibility untrained I actually liked you But you bring me to tears All the stress and the struggle After all these years Being stuck here with you Is the worst of my fears I should have heeded advice That I got from my peers Listening to you Is pain in my ears Because verbal abuse Is all that I hear I actually liked you But apologies are due You wasted my time I thought you were true Yeah, that's what I thought About the person I thought I knew But now that I'm close, Everything I'm seeing is new A split personality, Hot and cold. Not cute A double lifestyle, All lies, it's no use I actually liked you But there's nothing I can do We could never work out Until you learn to love you