Hurt

My eyes hurt, my tears won't stop. My heart ache's and no one knows! This pain is very deep, I thought you are the one who understood me all the time, Yet you faked everything, You pretend that you do, You want what you want, You think I am trouble for you, You think a lot about me but yet that isn't my intention at all. Is hard to have no one to talk, Except strangers on Poetry Soup, I don't know what to do? I have no mother or father to teach me things as I like,or I can talk to for an advise. I have no friend to trust to get things out of my chest as I like. I have a boyfriend who pretends that understands me. I have God who I am mad of and He makes me wait for things? I feel all alone with this four walls in my room, I used to hold my kitty when I had no one to talk to, But she died and I miss her a lot, And every time I miss her I go see other kittens, I can't never find the one I want to buy. I have nothing to do day/night, I finished my major and there is no jobs or even hope. I hate to go to therapy because they never tell you the truth, Always, always tell you what you want to hear. My life feels like hell!!!