How Stupid
Some days I feel so INSANE....
All this anger, rage and pain
Is all rolling around so deep
Out of my soul it surely seeps.
Lord how stupid was I?
I believed every lie,
I took every powerful punch
And boy there were a bunch.
Every choice I am second guessing.
Nothing in them is a blessing.
With every cry and every tear
Am wondering how I got here?
Now know the system I once believed in
Said all my decisions were all a sin.
The judge said my children she would take
As she believed that their interests I had forsake.
Family and my few select friends
Think that I have made amends.
But surely how can I?
When all I can do is ask why?
Why did I stay his wife?
Why did I endure all the strife?
Why can't I still be a mom?
Why can't I find that magic balm?
Why won't this agony go away?
How long must I continue to pay?
Can I ever really heal?
Or forever will pain be all I feel?
Copyright © Kristy De La Keur Scoville | Year Posted 2009
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