How Long Will This Last?

I try not to think of that awful night; Even though I know that's not right. It hurts so much to think of what you said; I've tried so hard to put it out of my head. I remember how quickly my world came to an end; I'd lost the guy I loved and my best friend. I didn't know what to say, all I could do is cry; I remember how much I wanted to die. Slowly now, almost four months have passed; And I'm still hurting, how long will this last? When you left, I lost something I can't get back; The ability to love someone else is what I lack. You said you wouldn't hurt me like others have before; All the trust I had was lost when you walked out the door. I will never again be able to trust anyone; My days of being hurt are over and done. I now know all the things I did wrong; I let my guard down, believed our love was strong. For you, there was nothing I wouldn't do; I would've changed my whole life for you. I wonder sometimes if I hadn't been that way; If you'd still be with me today. I know you loved me more than anything; I remember how you cried when you gave me my ring. You hurt me so much and you broke my heart; But still I wish we weren't apart. You're so happy now from what I can see; And you so easily forgot about me. That hurts me more than you could ever know; I wish to God I could let you go. I know I can't do that as long as I care; And sometimes it seems I'll love you forever, I swear. It doesn't matter who it is or whatever the case; No one will ever be able take your place. I know I will never find someone new; Because the only one I'll really ever want is you!