How I Feel Nightly

How I feel nightly I'm only around So everyone can feel good About their self As I slowly die In my shell. Tears dance Down my cheeks every night As scars appear by dawn. Lost in this world Walking down  The sidewalk Hoping a hand would give me a push Into the middle of traffic. Oh, wouldn't everyone Be happy at the sight of my blood Or the sounds of my bones cracking One by one As I edge towards the light  In front of me. What's the only thing Keeping me here? Why, I can't even tell you Why I spend my days  In depression Hoping for a new beginning.