How Far Will I Let You Drag Me

Ghosts were whispering into my ear As I thought of those old days I can't help but laugh at how stupid this is At how I'm perfectly content yet crave more It was like a car crash I saw it coming And I swerved to avoid it Too late I saw your face in that picture And the car that is my heart slammed against my ribs As hard as it could It hurt I'm sure she wouldn't like it If she knew I still craved you But why do I When I'm so happy with her? I could hit myself, I'm being so stupid And as I look at how I'm building myself An introvert who shuns the outside Am I wrong for it? You certainly looked haunted But then again, you always did Always so empty As if it was my complete calling in life to fill in what was missing You're making me braver To the point of stupidity How bad will I hurt everyone around me and myself To see just how far I will go? The distortion is closing in Filling my eyes, ears and soul Stinging my throat and burning my breath Give me one last taste before I lose my senses