How Do I Get There

Isolated, closed door, evil stare... Trying to get out. How do I get there? Uncertainty, disgusted, let down in compressed air... Trying to make sense of it. How do I get there? Faithful friends, truthful in what they share... Trying to absorb their words. How do I get there? Pre-trial, revealing devastating news, life seems so unfair... Trying to stay afloat. How do I get there? Bad news confirmed, court room again, filled with lies in thin air... Trying to keep my babies and myself safe. How do I get there? I keep asking; HOW IS LIFE FAIR? HOW IS LIFE FAIR? Trying to quench and hold onto the Lord's Prayer... How do I get there? Alone, depressed, in despair... Trying for their sake to just be there. How do I get there? Faith, counseling, oh how I'm in need of prayer. Trying not to be hurt. How do I get there? Final hearing, I feel let down again... Trying to get my life back. How do I get there? Compassionate new friends, 6 day trip, eager to share... Trying to heal my heart and wounds. How do I get there? New freedom, feeling alive, silly online questionnaire... Trying to do something fun to find myself again. How do I get there? Interesting biography, cute smile, do I take the dare? Trying to move forward. How do I get there? Feeling unattractive, awkward, and out of place, what do I wear? Trying to stay positive. How do I get there? Unwilling to commit, afraid and in disrepair... Trying to guard my heart. How do I get there? Encouraging and empathetic, to my surprise, he has tender loving care... Trying to remain hopeful and joyous. How do I get there? God has sent me an angel, but still, I get that evil stare... Trying to understand the feelings of my children. How do I get there? Everything happens for a reason, even when it seems unfair... Trying to live up to His expectations. How do I get there? written by Michaela Johnson August 2011