Hourglass

I got needs and wants only she can fill the only problem is... she lacks heavily in the reciprocity department and because love is an action word to me I don't get back what I give so it's a must I move with caution Imagine... Being in love with the most attractive woman but your love languages aren't compatible almost laughable to me the universe really has a sense of humor I don't know how to navigate thru this part of my life and I can't see my life without her in it also, this relationship isn't bad enough for me to call it quits It's the itch I can't scratch the plane I can't escape I patiently waited for this woman only to realize the thing I ghosted woman for in my past and said over and over a woman who isn't affectionate to me is a red flag... I've given her time but time tells all and it's told me she's the anomaly... all I want her to do is love on me the way I do her, is that really too much to ask love that doesn't flow naturally is clearly unnatural Somehow she's the mona lisa I painted blindly I chose not to see her for what she was but also, does she see me for what and who I am as a cancer I just...sit and observe then retreat into my shell I still hope that things would get better but I have to dispel those thoughts seems like I'm just too caught up in the way I was loved from women of my past I wonder at times if I'm staring too deeply into this hourglass