Hopeless Addict That I Am

This is my drug Rushing into me Leaving me emotionless ...Just as I wanted Tears drop But I feel no pain Moments pass I start to numb ...It's exactly as I wanted This is my drink At the end of the day I drink to forget But I still remember... I can't forget I'm beat Emotionally, I'm drained I tell myself I'll quit But I'm a hopeless addict, longing for more of the pain The pain that numbs Body, mind, and soul I keep thinking If I just keep hurting Eventually I wont feel anymore I don't wanna feel anymore HE is my drug, my drink at the end of the day And when I close my eyes To go to sleep I know that in the morning, I'll be alone again