Hiding Behind Humor

I use humor to distract you From things I'd prefer you not to see- Insecurity Self hatred Desperation Disgust. I hope I make you laugh so hard you cry, So that you'll forget the question you asked about how I'm really doing. Maybe if I keep you laughing, You won’t notice the purple rings under my eyes that reveal I'm not sleeping at night, And that I can't get out of bed most mornings. Maybe you won't notice that every time I see my reflection, I want to scream until my vocal chords tear apart, Because I hate the person that is staring back at me. Maybe if I keep you laughing I can keep hiding behind the flimsy facade that I'm okay. But I wish I could tell you I'm not.