Hiding

I stare into the mirror as the make-up slowly comes off . And the girl that stays in hiding all day comes out . The girl with blackened eyes from crying all night . The one that cuts her wrist just to watch the blood slowly drip down and form a pool . She does this every night to reassure herself she still has control over her own life . She stays up thinking of you . You’re the last thing on her mind before she goes to bed every night . She falls asleep holding on to every last memory you share . All along knowing you;ve forgotten every single one . I fall asleep hiding her in the back of my mind . All night long dreaming of old times and how I used to get the butterflies in my tummy just by seeing your smile . Then realizing it was all just a dream , I wake up , go to the mirror and see that girl again . I start throwing things at the mirror , hoping to make her go away . I punch the mirror praying she’ll disappear . The mirror shatters and shreds my knuckles . Leaving a blood covered mess across my bedroom floor . So I get up leaving the mess behind wishing it would take the memories with it . In the bathroom putting the make-up back on hiding the girl with the blackened eyes and cut up wrists . Getting ready to go through another day of walking around the halls seeing you and her together . The way we used to be . Back when things were good and life was good and everything made sense . Back when that girl that stays in hiding didn’t even exist . Then he comes up, wraps his arms around me, kisses me and stares into my eyes . I stare right back into his eyes all along wishing I was staring into your s. but all along realizing I never will again . So I go back home , start taking the make-up off again, bringing out that girl from her hiding place .