Heartbreak of An Introvert

Why'd I have to go off and love you I mean I do love you Kinda sorta in-a-way I guess not really anymore Like I don't hate but I sometimes just want to pick at your heart with a meat clever till your true emotions spill out Don't get me wrong I don't mind chillin with you but when I do I start to feel like things are better Like the way you would look at me makes me feel like love really dose exists And the way we would inappropriately joke about sex while around other couples made me think things seemed easy I know we broke up but you never truly knew how I felt Like how I would write about you every other day And the fact that I have a journal that's filled with poems that would make me look like a creep I mean when we were together things couldn't have been better I had my dream girl My grades were great I couldn't see life getting any better than this But knowing life and I things were only to get worse May 26 2015 the breakup After our senior trip of course I was in denial A week later you were distant Two days later we were physical One graduation later you had broke it off One semester of college and boring conversations every know and them later I'm here Why'd I have to go off and love you I mean I do still think I love you I think Like I don't hate you I just hate our outcome and I don't hate what we had I just hated what it made me By: Justin sharp