Has It Been

Has it been ? It has been – from then until now – a long winding road, journeying through forests, up mountains, in graveyards, down valleys, into hell fires, experiencing life’s diversions, filled – heart ache, heart break, pointless pain inflicted and yet, continues to carry on - arriving at this place, this point in time and space, that I have come to – empty ! Has it been ?, fate, destiny, genetics, karma, heritage, unenlightened choices that have guided the foot steps to the door, behind which an empty heart, an indifferent soul, a cold spirit awaits, to foil every attempt to enter. Could ?, this ghostly apparition be the avenging angel - for – setting before me, for me all the pain, all the heartache that has followed in my wake as I take, this, my journey towards the empty, meaningless, void that seems to be me and my life. Only the stars, steel bars and the angels know what lies behind / within the shadows of this life ! B. J. “A” 2 April 29th 2008