Hard To Explain

Sometimes he feels good in the morning when he gets up Sometimes he's sick to his stomach and he throws up Is he out of luck Does it have something to do with his past Why Is his body going down hill fast His earliest memory's are filled with pain Is he losing his mind and going insane There's never any change It always remains the same Is it because he's filled with all kinds of shame What has he became in this complicated game It's hard to explain He has tried to live his life in the name of the Lord Yet his body suffers it feels ignored Trying to be thankful for what he's got Yet the painful memories never stop He's Losing the will Taking handfuls of pills Having a hard time expressing how he feels He wants to feel loved and rise above Why does everything always become push to shove Every day is a battle Like trying to ride a horse without a saddle Or being stuck up a creek without a paddle It all started in the womb Constantly playing the same tune The truth will come out soon Will he live or will he die He just wants to run and hide Scared of everything scared to cry Scared to see what's on the other side Will he go to heaven or be denied! I think maybe his brain is fried!