Happiness Forsaken

It's a pain that is oh so familiar to me now. The emptiness, it's no surprise. It comes on so suddenly. So high then low in a simple glimpse. There is no warning. It catches me when I'm weak. Rapes my mind, and leaves me oblivious to my well being. There is no cure. I have grown to believe it. My heart, it hurts and my eyes are burning. I blink and they all fall. My tears staining. I've hit an all time low, and I don't know how to reverse it. My brain is aching. Too much at once. My body can take so much. I'm at an overload. I don't know my own thoughts. There are too many. My feelings are unknown. God please reveal them to me, and relieve me before I break down. Bring the war in my heart at peace. I pray to you but it is like i am unheard. Where is my strength. I am overwhelmed with sorrow. I just want to be happy.