Happiness

I have seen better days, but I have also seen worse days. I have seen the darkness, but i have also seen the light I didn't have everything I wanted but I had all i needed. I slept on a hungry soul and only dreamt horrors unimaginable Sometimes I want to be little again, sometimes I wish I were dead. But i wonder after all this time we were together, If i die would you cry,would you miss me, would ask yourself why Would you ever realise that I had died a long time ago,I don't think so. You did not see my soul slip away into darkness You never heard my voice or what I said or the silent cries of my soul You didn't see the deep scars inside my heart or the tears that fell down my cheeks You didn't mourn the death of our dreams or my dreams If i die will i ever be happy again I just need a little happiness in my life............. Everyday is a struggle although I put a brave smile, Telling the world everything is alright, But as soon as I'm alone the smile goes away I slice my veins to bleed the pain away I overdose on the pills to numb the pain Only my sanity fades away, but the pain remains I don't know how my story will end, But nowhere will it ever read I gave up... I don't want a perfect life, but I want to be happy I realised this too late but I am responsible for my own happiness I am going to be happy without you. Goodbye