Hallucinating

Am I hallucinating? My eyes are glazed over, people are asking me if I am okay. No I am not, can't you see my face twisted into knots? Can't you see the blood in my eyes? Can't you see this pain, this fear, this suffering, these tears, I cry for your love, I just wanna listen to Miley, go back to being quiet. These lights and noises are making my head feel like it's just gonna explode, like my eyes are gonna implode, Save me from this massacre. Save me from this horrible selection, I don't want to be your final last victim, I don't want to die, I swear I will live for today, and look at tomorrow, and the simple days to follow. I remembered the days where I lived for only today, and never looked forward to tomorrow, or the next day, let alone the next month. Am I hallucinating? I feel dizzy, I feel faint.... My heart is beating hard against my chest, my veins bulging out, My blood running hot and smooth through my body, The blood and tears going to my brain. The overflowing of stress and agony, Will it ever end? Oh, God almighty, please let it end! It hurts so much, I cannot handle this any longer! Please free me of this pain, and suddenly it stops, a miracle maybe, then the tears start to flow from my face, wondering if I really am okay.