Guilty of Taking My Own Name

Time to kill the good boy act and kill the compassion Time to leave out the niceness cause I have my reasons Yeah I grew up 5 years here but that doesn't mean I'm loyal Forget this state, this outcast could care less Today, I had it all figured out, my plans were worked out I was going to ask somebody to approach me and remove all my addictions, hatred, sorrow, crushing vulnerability but my plans changed because I need all of it just to be me It gives me the fuel to be different when I feel the same as always Even though as of late my anger has intensified Still I take no names, just my own So if you hold me innocent Claim me guilty of this week I've bathed my tongue with so many words unpleasant because nothing has worked for me And I could swear on a shining star in the night sky I could name my only God forsaken reason why I remain in this stupid isolation state that drains all my energy But dispatch me from the list of inhabitants I don't belong here and I never will Can somebody provide a ride for me for a ticket to the park I don't care which one Just let it have a track so I can play my own depressing soundtrack to forget about today and my obvious failures... Hopefully she'll tag along but as long as she doesn't see thine eyes for I love her too much for her to see the monster living inside of me