Grandma

I remember there was no one that could make wrong things right like she could. It was as if everything that was bad became good. Just by my grandmothers presence and the solid energy that she possessed. With my her at my side I knew I was eternally blessed. She created such checks and balances in my life. Shielded me from unneeded judgement and strife. I always knew I had this extra sense of protection. No other relationship had an even similar connection. And then she became very ill. Everything seemed to quickly go downhill. I didn't realize what her death would bring. How deeply my heart and soul would sting. Never had that same confidence after she was gone. I felt like this clueless, hopeless, childlike pawn. No longer had my strong bullet proof protection. Always tried to be a reminisce of her reflection. Now I am a mother like no other. I protect and guide my children, sometimes even smother. Only because she showed me the unconditional love as I grew. Grandma, I knew no matter what I did no matter what I went through. I always had you. Now my children know this same unconditional love too.