Goodbye Kiss

It beckons me, drawing me to its safety. I can't be hurt here, nor can I hurt you. I live in this world unhappily. If I go, I will brighten the world’s hue. I live in this world, just causing pain. If I go with Death, problems are solved. The Earth will be cleansed, as if it just rained. It started out small, but quickly evolved. Now, how do I join Death? What should I do? Maybe take too many meds. That just might work. I'll drift off dreaming, and thinking of you. Oh, how I love you. But I've been a jerk. Why did this happen? Why's it come to this? Maybe you can give me a goodbye kiss...