Giving Up All Hope

cant do this anymore knees to weak to stand waiting for that bit of adrenalin so i can get back on my feet my stress level is in the danger zone depression is controlling my life where in my drawer i keep a knife always knowing i have that easy way out keeps me alive another day the fighting with my ex the frustration of wondering whats next that empty feeling of being alone everyday all the confusion wanting to get back with her shes telling me that she changed but knowing its all an allusion everyday is the same everyday i feel depressed everyday i mentally and physically feel pain why does the thought of death run like a river through my head each day why cant i just be happy why cant my life just be normal like it use to be why does this have to happen to me maybe i should just let go and set my soul free maybe the afterlife will be better then my current one all this stress on me weighs a ton ive dug myself a hole that doesnt seem like i will ever get out of wishing i could go back and change so many things so i wouldnt be in this situation