Giving Up

I'VE BEEN HELD BACK TIED TO THE REINS OF SELF PITTY LOOKING BACK AT MY LIFE NOW I KNOW IT WAS NEVER PRETTY IT CROSSES MY MIND FROM TIME TO TIME NEVER THOUGHT IT COULD BE REWOUND THIS PATH OF MINE MEMORIES FILLED WITH PAIN CAUSED BY SELFISH NEGLECTS AND NOW IT RAINS JUST OUT OF DISRESPECT I CURSE AT THE SKY ASKING …WHY GIVE ME THIS BURDEN NOT KNOWING THAT DEEP INSIDE IT ONLY KEEPS ON HURTIN…….. I WAKE UP…. AND I WANT TO QUIT WASH MY FACE AND SEE THAT AM STILL JUST FULL OF IT THINKING THAT THIS MIRROR IS LYING LOOK AT THE TEARS FALLING WONDER WHY I NEVER KEPT TRYING AND NOW I FEEL LIKE DEATH’S STALLING CALLING… THE WRONG NAME….. MY TURN NEVER COMES… AND IT ONLY STARTS TO RAIN SUFFERING BUT HAS JUST BEGUN AND I RUN… TRY TO ESCAPE THIS FAITH LIVE OR DIE… WHAT SHOULD I CHOOSE DECIDE BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE AND WHAT IF I REFUSE DO I THROW MYSELF OFF THE CLIFF BURN MYSELF ALIVE BUT THAT’S A QUESTION OF WHAT IF… AND WHAT IF I SURVIVE AND THE END NEVER ARRIVES WILL I ONLY SUFFER MORE TORTURE ENDURE A LIFETIME OF PAIN TO HELL WITH THE FUTURE! HERE IS WHERE I WANT TO REMAIN…. DIE HERE AND NOW… THIS TIME AND PLACE NO LONGER DO I WANT TO GROW… EITHER WAY NO ONE WILL REMEMBER MY FACE!!!!