Gaslit Nightmare

Willingly, I ran That was the first sign my life was falling apart Strange bike that brought me back in one piece, damn you That hope of abduction never came to fruition I am complacent in the wake of my life’s finale Climbing those eight flights of stairs Only to prolong my denial Too choked to speak Life has always been easy I realize you are a hologram Motion picture of a mother You are complacent in the wake of my life’s finale Sent to bed at five o'clock The same time it's been since yesterday I fake asleep When you walk in with my father Coughing lies and webs of drunken incongruencies I am complacent in the wake of my life's finale We eat, and I sit by the water Black tide splashing up to my toes For a moment, I dream of drowning, Fanatically gasping for air I'm pulled away by the arrival of pasta I do not eat, but rather stare as you finish One, Two, Three, Four Glasses of wine I threaten to walk until I'm pacified Moron, you call me As we arrive, safely Climbing those eight flights of stairs Only to prolong my denial My eyes are closed I fake asleep Sober at midnight I said something that had scared you, though you don't quite remember Please talk to you I liked hearing you beg Ignoring you in my bed, I fake asleep I wake up alone Breakfast waiting for me I do not eat. Yesterday did not happen I'm seventy feet under Quite easy it would be to die here, I think I wish I had. I was complacent in the wake of my life’s finale Resurfacing, I refuse my favorite fruit I do not eat, but rather stare at the water For a moment, I dream of drowning, Fanatically gasping for air I’m complacent in the wake of my life’s finale We drive in silence Still crunchy from the salt I fake asleep I never woke up Hypnotized by your lies and The gaslit fire that kept me warm in my slumber I dreamt of drowning, Fanatically gasping for air Until I fell still, complacent in the wake of my life’s finale