Gallant Festivities

It was my evening, that's For sure - "Its your aura" For sure - At last I'm good At something. "Spot the Equity card!" "When are you going To be a superstar?" Said Sarah. That seemed to be The question On everyone's lips. At last, at last, at last I'm good at something. And so the party...Zoe Called me...I listened To her problems; References To my innocent face. Linda said: "Sally seems elusive But is in fact, Accessible; You're the opposite - You give to everyone But are incapable Of giving in particular." Madeleine was comparing me To June Miller; Descriptions by Nin: "She does not dare To be herself..." Everything I'd always Wanted to be, I now am. "...She lives On the reflections Of herself in the eyes Of others... There is no June To grasp and know." I kept getting up to dance Sally said: "I'm afraid; You're inscrutable; You're not just Blase Are you?" I spoke Of the spells of calm, And the hysterical Reactions, Psychic exhaustion, Then anxious elation. "Gallant Festivities was based on two pages of informal journal notes dating from 1982-'83, although all names have been changed.)