Friendship Or Relationship

We been thru thick n thin thru the ups and the down .but why when i need you the most do u push me away.MAY IT BE THAT WE BOTH JUST WANT TO GO OUR SEPARTE WAYS or that we are the same in to many ways.but all this brings me pain because day after day i just lay there and pray that is relationship we have don't fade because that day this so called friendship breaks I am going to be in a PAIN that won't just days or years to heal but maybe even decades