Free

I don’t know what I want Or exactly what I need I want someone to hold And at the same time to be free Free from this life Free from the world Let go Have a new me born I cant take the struggle And don’t understand the pain I don’t understand me Or why it turned out this way How a mother Can tell so many lies And her lover touching us Can ignore all our cries It makes no sense And I’ll never understand How you can molest us And still feel like a man I’ll never get how He can touch us And yet with him You still share lust I don’t know And cant grasp what’s happening And still I’m not sure How exactly its all changed me It scares me To not know who I am And it hurts I’m letting go But I’ve done all I can It scares me To be unsure and not know so much And with all the knowing and reason I’m not sure the truth is what I would clutch I’m looking for a happy ending But there’s not one in sight And no one I’ve ever known Has done something right So setting off on my own I know for a fact will be rough But for me and my sister and future family I have to be tough