Fractured Youth

my fathers hands so worked and worn a child of three my life was torn my child eyes watch you endure the pain when you left it never was the same drunken nights i watched and cryed,fear for you so deep inside lost and little i felt your pain, trust and hope id never regain impaled with fear and scared for life you cut my heart with all your strife older now i understand , life dealt you a bitter hand day by day i watched you suffer, all the pain i could not muster young and lost my heart was dead, fatherly words you never said even though my childhood was scorned, i love you father for you are mourned i think of all your drunken night's, barroom brawls and family fights till cancer came and scared your brain,i watched you suffer and went insane i write this ode on a tear stained page,i felt your hurt as much as rage my wounds are healing as time slips by, i stare at your grave and just ask why.