Forgotten In My Head

I'm screaming out so loudly it's echoing inside my head. Yet surrounding volumes unchanged cuz i'm all alone yet again. I'm always there for you no matter what you need. So why is it so difficult for anyone to do the same for me? I get put aside, set on the back pages of your mind. I do and do just tryn to help, yet without question I inevitably fail again and again. I can't be very useful when i'm constantly forgotten. I guess it's better otherwise, i'm just causing yall problems. I'm lonely and sad. I hate making yall mad. Overlooked after being set aside and forgotten. All I wanted was to know you really meant it when you said i'm your friend. But again I sit lonely, screaming out for just someone to talk to and simply remind me why yall wouldn't be better off if I were dead. Is it asking to much to help me prove to myself all this is just bulls**t living inside my head