Forgiving Myself

How to forgive yourself is hard for me I am trying to stop him so I can be free Where is your forgiveness to rescue me You can ask God to take you home Or you can sit and suffer and be alone Forgiveness comes from the heart Letting it go can be the place to start I know I’m not to blame for any of this Why is this life for me not sheer bliss How do you forgive such wicked things I’m not God or a heavenly Angel with wings My heart is to fragile and it hurts to much I even struggle with the simplest touch I often wonder what’s wrong with me The scars are deep they make you flee How do I ask to forgive for all that’s wrong It’s been all my life, it’s not been strong I am to fragile with life long hurting pain forgiveness to me is not removing a stain You need to understand the pain still remains I ask you God to forgive me with all my heart Take it away and give me the fresh start You stood by me in times of despair So bad that nothing can ever compare The worst thing of all was being left to suffer The feeling of hurt that life can’t get any tougher You need strength to forgive which I have no more Help me someone it hurts to much to just ignore Maybe I’m not ready to forgive even myself Am I just another Victim to be put on the shelf Help me forgive myself so that one day I am free