Forgiveness

as a little girl i had bad dreams. i awoke in the night to hear my own screams. these dreams were nightmares i lived many nights, i prayed for help as i turned out the lights. the dreams had a monster i knew well, i was a good girl i could not tell. the monster would hurt me and make me feel sad, what hurt me the most was my dad. i told no one about the game, i could not tell mom because of the shame. without fear and refusing to cry i faced the monster and ask why?. i got no answer to the questions i had, i got my answer by watching my dad. i saw him crying and shaking his head i saw my daddy wishing he were dead. i felt no anger, hate nor fear, what i was feeling was so perfectly clear. i felt so sorry for the soul trapped inside, i asked for forgiveness for wishing he had died.