Forgive Me,Why

I have spent years trying to find the answers I long to have. I am still clueless as to why. why did you do the things you did ? I was your daughter your own flesh and blood yet you robbed me time and time again everytime you said or did something another piece of me was taken I will never get that back. It will always be lost to me I was our child, the one you were supposed to love forever. But forever must have seemed just a bit to long or maybe just to much for you to handle the names you called me the times you laughed at me and the threats that made me quiver in my bed with fear haunt me still Years later you sit and ask me how you are supposed to forgive, for what I have done ?! forgivness for what ? being a child being born? Being too loud, too quite too bad, to much to handle ? Or just being your child that was born to you? Today is a new day tomorrow hasn’t come yet and yesterday is behind me but for today, I will not indulge, your abusive manipulative cruel game you wish to play. Nothing more, are you going to steal from me this day.