Forgive Me

I’m sorry for the decision I made I’m sorry for abetting your fate Forgive me as I vomit the truth today, As it might be hard to digest But for the sake of my peace, allow me to confess Because If I don’t do it, my troubled soul won’t rest I’m sorry I threw you in a battle with pills Which you failed to endure Your life was prodded before it had the chance to greet the world Your corpse was transported in a pool of blood The same lane you were supposed to travel alive I confess I found trouble in your presence I confess I was afraid that in few months, My middle part will broadcast to the world Papa will beat me Mama will be angry with me My sisters and brothers will reject me My future will be crumbled I will lose my dignity That’s how I defended my stupidity For silly reasons I saw you as a mistake, I judged you as a fruit of little worth A condemned fruit Not befitting in my days of fun But son/daughter, From your heavenly window, Look at me, See the shame in my eyes And fear of reality Memories haunting me day and night Realizing what I did wasn’t right Forgive me ©Christopher E. Loti (Chris the poet)