Forget the Guilt

Staring into my pillow as I smother myself, Any further under and there'd be no way out, Cursing my heart for its mindless pursuits, Wondering in vain what this bond is about, So I pocket your bodyclock, darling? Well surely That's simply a testament to my power over you, We can talk long past midnight, and onwards through dawn, This crash course in connecting is long overdue, I thought I was building foundations with him, Then you whisked me away and we whipped up a shelter, Every touch that we share, I feel for him less, He shivers without me whilst you and I swelter, I'm never cold unless we're apart, When you're gone, I miss you maybe more than I should, I know it's impossible, and I'm hating the way That I'm sighing and wishing that the world understood, So here I am now, where are you my dear? I thought you were telling your girlfriend the truth? Yes I know you're off bounds, but you haven't stopped yet And besides, shouldn't I have some fun in my youth? All logic has vanished, I'm going against Everything I believed in or thought was all right, Of course I feel guilty for our other halves, But it doesn't stop me wanting to see you tonight, Early hours of the morning, I know you're with her, I don't want to think about where you are now, You'll be mine tomorrow, and so we can stay Like this for as long as our lies will allow.