For Friends

how could i have done this to you all of you who would follow me to the end of the earth and tomorrow and tomorrow and... i must thank you, show that i now know how much you mean to me and you never let me be not when i was alone body, mind and soul not when i threw you away, you knew that i still needed you. and still do. and i miss you too. i know how much you would miss me should i leave this life what strife i would cause if i forever paused these relationships these friendships memories of lipstick parties that last into the night, fast fights and long wrongs all forgotten. we were rotten but the best of friends, open to any test love runs thick and some bonds stick for a lifetime. you are my lifeline when i’m drowning you are my raft and i have to remember how good every member is to me and i seem thankless to deceive and leave. i’ve had enough and though this may be tough i’m committed my resignation has been submitted to the land of suicide no longer will i ride this tide that brings me nowhere. so this rings true for me, for you too and i do cherish what you’ve said as i lie in bed those words roll in my head giving me the hope that i can i can i can cope.