For All That Doesn'T Matter

Nights you know I held you I could never leave you I just want to tell you I would never fail you At thirteen you were telling me to calm down Selfishly I replied I’m not trying to stay on this earth You see measures are trifling and beyond their worth I’m going to continue doing me until the end is all I see You call it a death wish I assume I’m living free Anti-territorial yet no one stands next to me For burdens in time have captured a short life expectancy I make you laugh tear and smile No fantasies of a greater guarantee I know my wrongs But I’ve been submerged in vengeful songs for so long That I can’t find my way home Am I bugging I told her I loved her Now the closest we get is digital hugging Send, reply, good bye A son of seven mothers Don’t cry we had some bad times But I realize The blues won’t come unless you live your life I swear before my last name I had mine Nights you know I held you I just want to tell you I could never leave you I would never fail you When I tell you I’m still in school You shrug and ask when will I finish I tell you I’m a bad judge of character You tell me my art is detrimental Insisting that I shouldn’t forget But it’s not a flame I’m willing to rekindle In this life I’m subsequent to sudden storms I guess it’s just where I’m coming from, calm It was nothing, a few silent alarms Seen a more subtle time Chasing geese and hen back on the farm Now I’m trouble and moneys my struggle How can I respond I feel you have tuned your shoulders forward toward a decent summer bloom Above my head I’m trying to catch up to things you’ve said I’ve become a heartless person and I apologize You can abruptly see it worsen in my eyes Desensitized in cursive but my feelings don’t lie An everyday funeral left a good sigh I’m trying to bury this artistic side goodbye Nights you know I held you I could never leave you I just want to tell you I would never fail you