For a Time

I found a perfect alley the other day Where I could get blissfully loaded And not wonder about nonsense Like living a fool with a car and family; a False serenity For a Time. My cardboard walls create a mansion In my mind where I can hide all Of my fears and hopelessness From the outsiders whose so called Help is only For a Time. Nothing can fix this hole; this void Can only grow emptiness, filling Me up inside like a meal. All this pain I try to hide, force a Smile and laugh if only For a Time. But I stay in my cardboard kingdom Handing down my convictions of You who view me with disdain And feel I am unworthy to Walk in your world if only For a Time.