For a Special Friend

I have a million other contacts But it only feels right with you. I try to hide it and not be a drag But i cant stop myself from feeling blue. I have everything okay And a life to live But why do i feel so broken inside Empty and repeating the words "what if?" Sometimes i wonder if im a good friend Because you're there more often than i. I wonder if i actually help you Instead of bagging then passing you by. But each and every time Your tone stays the same. And i'm kind of mesmerized Happy even if i'm kind of insane. And one day i hope i can do So much better, meta morph Into a better person, complete and strong So i can give you a small paradise that'll make you smile Because that's where you belong.