Flying With Wax Wings

Is it time again Is this another day again where I sit up once more waste my fingers to the bone to describe my grievance with the Sorceress named Sarah... No...not this time Is it time again is this another day when I sit up once more waste my fingers to the bone rejoicing how much in love I was with Sarah my Sorceress No...not this time she's not mine anymore Was she truly mine to begin with I don't really know I don't think I ever really did but it doesn't matter cause in defiance to everyone who told me to forget in defiance to those who told me to grow up and move on in defiance to myself I begin my ode to Sarah Traditional, this is not one They, the people they've all heard the tales my strives to be with you my lessons to hold you my ends to forget you my means to erase, detach you from me but it's all been an attempted failure like plankton stealing a krabby patty like Icarus flying with wax wings I'm just a failure a loser I was crowned so after a movie date gone awry with you or do you remember I can never forget Where is the sense in all of this I have no clue All I know, well I know nothing I'm miserable without you I'm a fluctuating time bomb with you I can't stand you I love you I want to push you off a cliff I want to hold you and never let go just to remember, just to know what I felt four years ago was true what I felt four years ago was real Sarah, how did us become so wrong Sarah, will you admit you were stolen from me Sarah, how can you not remember you were stolen from me Sarah, believe me... Sarah, do you even remember me... I once held you so close to my heart Sarah, do you even remember me... No...you've barely spoken my name since I was forced to leave only to get a rise out of me leading me on, building me up sending your knights out to slay the dragon of me sending your vikings out to slay me sending your pirates out to burn me to the ground sending your vultures out to make sure I would be laid deceased Are you satisfied I lay deceased Are you happy here I am depressed and yet here I still defend your name while I curse it just the same Sarah... Sarah... (sigh) Selena... I can say it like a man I can take it like a man I can stand up and be a man to fall back down and be a kid again I loved you you were everything to me you were...everything but everything is now nothing and that's I guess is me now Nothing...nothing...nothing... I'm sick of everyone telling me holding on is unhealthy I'm sick of everyone telling me to grow up and get over be a man and move on when they cannot fathom how much I tried to move on, ignore, fast forward but like a scratched up CD I lagged, I skipped forward and back trying to keep my head on straight bent in and out of shape built a castle and moat in quick sand everything just to...just to... just to get away but I lost all the battles lost the war I spent my entire freshman year of high school just to detach and latch on to hope to hope maybe one day I could hold you again to hope maybe I'll never see you again So I guess one scenario came true and I guess another truth is a wish untrue Sarah...Sarah the Sorceress...Sarah my Sorceress... Selena... I miss you... I hate you... I love you... I get depressed everytime I talk to you everytime I think you about you you were my happiness you were my everything you were...you were... Sarah... Selena... I once said forever... I once promised you my whole life... but like rusty flowers my promises have withered and flown away So do I say goodbye this day or do I hold onto you tightly May 22nd,2009... our first and last kiss do I hold onto you tightly in my mind...