Fly Among the Birds

Where has the time gone is todays only question If there is no true answer please forward me your suggestion It seems that I have woke up and found myself in the future awakened to the struggles of trying to mend open wounds with a suture I watch these scars as they heal in front of my eyes How did these scars allover my skin even arise How did I allow others to have such an impact of significant longevity How could I remain carrying these burdens weighing on me so heavily I can remember almost every moment of strife I have endured Yet I can hardly remember my successes this struggle is obsurd I cannot continue to allow others to influence negative thinking I cannot and will not any longer my boat is no longer sinking See I have found new glory like no other I have ever known for this soul reason I am able to grasp on the facts that I have truly grown I remember allowing others to make me feel or question who I am Never knowing in the end I would still be the same man Yes I have grown I have moved on yet my beliefs were always intact Never being allowed to share them always ending up attacked I truly believe that others will also someday become wiser with age I only hope in their moments they remember locking my feelings in a cage When the day comes forth and others actually realize the truth I was a man who never experienced necessary times of youth I have been judged based upon the youngest years and times of my existence But one thing remained true I always fought with such persistence Never once did I ask for what I was given as a struggle Being a boy forced into manhood not taught only TOLD to juggle I rose to the occasions I stood tall in the moments others fell yet I was treated as if I were the man who was not well people despise honesty and treat kindness as an unforgiven weakness Yes you have heard that before but never has hearing it left you speechless I have been dealt moments of confusion due to kindness mistaken for ill intention Never once was being kind intended by myself as a ploy for detention I only truly wanted to be kind because that is who I truly am inside I leave today saying for the first time I have not enjoyed this whole ride I have however enjoyed many moments along the way In hopes of vindication I admit I am thankful for every day To those who relate or feel as though you wrote these words I share my life my feelings to help others fly among the birds