First Impression

Please do not hold me within those claws of unworthiness As if your judgment alone DEFINES me! Get out of here, you little baby, You don’t recognize what’s good for you! Push away the peas, But you’re still going to have to eat them!!!! Your fresh eyes glanced easily upon stupidity, No, not stupidity—merely mistake! An innocent, mind-begrudging mistake! That, yes, I admittedly made. . . This is not even a scratch on the surface— Not even a soft powder-pat on your tiny balls That little trip up you witnessed, That you misconceived as smart-alecky trash, That you automatically assumed was ME, It was YOU So, rest easy, I mashed the peas for you: My heart is pumping with what you will never know I am bleeding along the surface of your hardened exterior I am a silly mistake in the form of a slip of the finger— An acquitted mistake That I will never make again (trust me on that one, OLIVER!) With all the efforts of justification, You rest your eyes with utter annoyance upon me now For that human, that CHILD standing there, Smiling in the light like a sunburned baby’s ass Is nothing but a diaper-filled disruption— A **** disturbance uncalled for But is adequately named, the one who IGNORES The moment I looked at you, Oliver I was certain of a sweet heart It was in your eyes—a trust of kindness so genuine So attractive you were, Full of newness—a shiny toy that remains in the box Limited edition (emphasis on limited)—exclusive…. By Destiny’s pacifying distain, She taught me I could be crushed of dreams The moment I fall on my face— That people are not always who you think they will be That I could be utterly and undeniably wrong in the good I see And God, you sir, are so deliberately ugly to me!!!!!! How’s that for an ETERNAL impression?! *Sorry guys. But I needed a raw rant off my chest. Love you guys immensely. If there’s an Oliver that reads this poem on here, I promise I am not aiming this at you babe….just had to make that clear…. XD *