Feeling

I have this weird feeling a feeling i cant explain lately ive been wondering am i still waiting in vain? i tried to figure out what this feeling is called what it is about and why im feeling cold suddenly it came to me then it really hit me hard this is no blasphemy, i was just caught off guard and yes, now i understand this feeling that i have did not come from disneyland neither is it love. its the feeling of sadness a feeling i dont know until it took my happiness and left me nothing but sorrow..