Fear of Losing You

My mind has created a blanket of sadness that covers me through the night, in the day time a fog surrounds me nothing clear ever comes in sight. My thoughts seem to be in a vacuum and my body perpetually tense, for the first time in my life I can say nothing seems to make any sense. These feelings are all very new to me my true fears have never been shown, but with danger to someone this close to me, brings a fear that I never have known. I know doctors have sometimes been wrong and new cures are still being found, these are the thoughts occupying my mind just to keep my feet on the ground. With the hope that my fears are unfounded my prayers are all for my wife, not only is she the woman I love but she's ninety percent of my life.