Fear

Fear I throw a towel into tomorrow But I wake up in the dead of the night My nerves won't let me have a moment's rest My heart is beating out of my chest I decide not to fight it I wake up and burn the midnight oil When I leave home The sun is so big and bright in front of my face It's hot outside yet the cold doesn't leave my body My breathing is paced I don't know what I don't know The hell, I don't even know what it is I know Arriving at the scene I am a wreck of nerves My hands and feet are cold I am sweating Well, I hate waiting Soon we start I don't look at the next quest Not even this quest's b from a One quest at a time I give it my all Forget grammar What the hell are spellings? My mind is thinking too fast My hand can't write fast enough Soon enough some of the letters are flying Here and there I have to go back and shape a letter I don't remember when I calmed down Wait a minute did I calm down at all At the end of it all I realise it wasn't that bad after all Now leaving the sun is hidden from the world Cold air rises from underneath my feet and embraces me I feel better But my mind wonders into the night Where I will wake up in the dead of the night Burn the midnight oil With my heart beating out of my chest The fear will begin anew And it will feel new and different