Family

Love your family they say Appreciate those who were there for you You should love your family no matter what But what if someone from your family is so toxic you feel like your chest is expanding, swelling, and it’s on the way to burst? What if this person was somebody who you looked up to for so many years? And now they are someone who makes you question your own value? What if this person has made you cry at night? They made you wonder if your existence was meant to be in the first place? You’re pretty but dumb and naive You’re pretty but you’re no good You’re pretty but you’re just such a mess You’re pretty but you’re just, you’re just not enough You can keep trying You can try doing things my way But they will never be right Because you will never be enough for me No one ever will be At least not in my book This woman was someone who I looked up to be She changed my diapers, taught me how to speak She taught me manners ironically While lowering my own self esteem You have everything I don’t like about myself What pity isn’t it? She asks me I smile and say it’s okay Because that’s all I have ever have left to say now Because family can become toxic Family can turn on you in a flash But you have to smile Because after all they are just you’re family And they’re just trying to help