Failed You
Mom lately cant help this
uneasy feeling
Its with self doubt that
I'm dealing
I idea of you in any pain
Making my mind go insane
Why didn't I simply open my eyes
how could I have been so blind?
My heart is tore up
Its really HURTING
I envision you lying there
Not wanting to be a burden
It wracks me with grief
guilt & despair
What if u needed ME
And I wasn't there?
The idea that I could have
Let you down in ANY way
Would haunt me until
My dying day
I gladly would have done
Anything to help you
You were to proud to
Ask me to
It never once dawned on
Me to check you inch by inch
Was assuming capable hands You were in
They were right there
Why didn't I see the clues?
Maybe could have saved you
from just one more bruise
Would you have been so black & blue if someone would have
Just spoken up for you?
God why did I back off instead of push through
Of all people I know the signs
I know what to DO
I wanted so badly to protect YOU
Perhaps your poor swollen
body wouldn't have been
in that horrible condition
If I would have took control
and MADE someone LISTEN
I had no idea to the extent
Of what was lurking beneath
Needless to say it knocked
the wind out of ME
Mom In some way I feel I failed you
when you didn't have
The strength to speak
so drained of energy you
were just to weak
My WHOLE life you have carried
me over life's jagged cliffs
Now I am the one plagued
with "what ifs?"
I was trying to let u have
just a shred of dignity
Looking back now what
has that gotten me?
Just a life without YOU
the definition of MISERY
YOU were as always so
beautiful brave and strong
I am left wondering
where did I go wrong?
I tried my best with the l
little that was shared
To Advocate for you
to show you how much I cared
I deeply apologize If I let you
down in anyway
I wanted for once
Be YOUR hero and save the day
Dear Mom I LOVE you
Hope that you are ok
To live my life wondering
Is no way to be
You are by far my lifes
Fondest Memory
My Angel fly away now
and be pain FREE
Know that EVERYDAY
Someone misses YOU
that someones ME
Copyright © Diana Vee | Year Posted 2016
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